Back to work, Back to reality

So I survived my first day back to work yesterday. It really wasn't too bad. It was nice to be able to finally catch up with everyone. I work with some really great people who really care about me. It was kinda weird talking to people about Caydence and what she is going through. I can only explain so much before people are just lost. Caydence is so complicated and what she has is definitely not something you see or hear about everyday so it makes it hard to really explain what things are like at home with her. Being back at work almost felt like I haven't been gone for 8 months. Work is still work, there are some new people to get to know, but really nothing much has changed. I do have some pretty crappy news, yesterday when I was getting ready to leave for work, I went to check on Caydence and talk to the nurse about how her night went, and the nurse was passed out in the chair in her room! I couldn't believe that he had fallen asleep on the job, something serious could have happened to Caydence and he wouldn't have even known. I was really mad but I didn't make a big deal about it because I really didn't even know what to say to him. We were already having some issues with this nurse and I had already talked to the company about finding us someone new, so I called them on my lunch break to see how the process was going and if they had anyone in mind. As I was talking to them I had mentioned that the nurse had fallen asleep and they took it seriously and said that was completely unacceptable. They called me back a few hours later saying that it was company policy and they had to suspend him until compliance does an investigation and determines if he can even work again with them. I wasn't expecting that to happen. I was willing to keep him around until we found someone else but I guess that's not how it's going to be. So now I am back to work and have no night shift nurse. Not the ideal situation. I tried to get to bed early last night and get a few hours of sleep and Eric stayed up with Caydence. I got up and sent him to bed for a couple hours before I need to start getting ready for work. Our day shift nurse will be here at 5 so Eric can go back to bed after she gets here. This was just horrible timing for all this to happen. I thought things were looking up and now I am stressing about what we are going to do. I guess it's a good thing that I won't be starting my night shifts for a little while. I just hope they get us someone fast. We need to get them in here soon so we can train them so we can start getting some sleep again. I don't think we are going to be able to do this for long. A night nurse is the most important because we need our sleep!